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25 September

Here's just how weird life can be: Last week I'd completely written off Lake Tahoe. I made an aggressive offer on a rental house, which I didn't expect to be accepted and then flew home at peace that I needed to move on to a more affordable town.

This week I've been trying to find rental home prospects in Evergreen and Colorado Springs. You wouldn't believe how difficult this is turning out to be: there seem to be few houses available, especially in Evergreen, they are unfurnished (which means I would have to move my furniture out, whereas the houses in Tahoe are furnished which allows me to take a six month rental and see how things go before moving everything), they may or may not allow dogs, and most surprisingly they are more expensive than Tahoe. I'm having a little better luck in Colorado Springs, but it would mean living in a sub-division rather than the mountains, but maybe that will be what it takes to get started.

Then the agent in Tahoe called and let …

25 September

Here's just how weird life can be: Last week I'd completely written off Lake Tahoe. I made an aggressive offer on a rental house, which I didn't expect to be accepted and then flew home at peace that I needed to move on to a more affordable town.

This week I've been trying to find rental home prospects in Evergreen and Colorado Springs. You wouldn't believe how difficult this is turning out to be: there seem to be few houses available, especially in Evergreen, they are unfurnished (which means I would have to move my furniture out, whereas the houses in Tahoe are furnished which allows me to take a six month rental and see how things go before moving everything), they may or may not allow dogs, and most surprisingly they are more expensive than Tahoe. I'm having a little better luck in Colorado Springs, but it would mean living in a sub-division rather than the mountains, but maybe that will be what it takes to get started.

Then the agent in Tahoe called and let …

25 September

Here's just how weird life can be: Last week I'd completely written off Lake Tahoe. I made an aggressive offer on a rental house, which I didn't expect to be accepted and then flew home at peace that I needed to move on to a more affordable town.

This week I've been trying to find rental home prospects in Evergreen and Colorado Springs. You wouldn't believe how difficult this is turning out to be: there seem to be few houses available, especially in Evergreen, they are unfurnished (which means I would have to move my furniture out, whereas the houses in Tahoe are furnished which allows me to take a six month rental and see how things go before moving everything), they may or may not allow dogs, and most surprisingly they are more expensive than Tahoe. I'm having a little better luck in Colorado Springs, but it would mean living in a sub-division rather than the mountains, but maybe that will be what it takes to get started.

Then the agent in Tahoe called and let …

22 September 09

Joy is not geography.

That is the big lesson I learned last week. I spent a few days in Incline Village, and yes, it will always be one of my favorite places on earth. But what I discovered while I was there is that right now it's not the right place for me. The home I've always wanted is beyond my financial means there and while I did find a nice house to rent, at the end of six months I'd be back where I started. But here's the big discovery: as much as I loved it, I could and would be able to find joy elsewhere. As a friend of mine said, " your joy is inside of you, has been all along."

So where does that leave me now? I'm heading to Colorado next weekend with three towns to visit and a home to rent.

22 September 09

Joy is not geography.

That is the big lesson I learned last week. I spent a few days in Incline Village, and yes, it will always be one of my favorite places on earth. But what I discovered while I was there is that right now it's not the right place for me. The home I've always wanted is beyond my financial means there and while I did find a nice house to rent, at the end of six months I'd be back where I started. But here's the big discovery: as much as I loved it, I could and would be able to find joy elsewhere. As a friend of mine said, " your joy is inside of you, has been all along."

So where does that leave me now? I'm heading to Colorado next weekend with three towns to visit and a home to rent.

22 September 09

Joy is not geography.

That is the big lesson I learned last week. I spent a few days in Incline Village, and yes, it will always be one of my favorite places on earth. But what I discovered while I was there is that right now it's not the right place for me. The home I've always wanted is beyond my financial means there and while I did find a nice house to rent, at the end of six months I'd be back where I started. But here's the big discovery: as much as I loved it, I could and would be able to find joy elsewhere. As a friend of mine said, " your joy is inside of you, has been all along."

So where does that leave me now? I'm heading to Colorado next weekend with three towns to visit and a home to rent.
Tonight I am in Tahoe. As I drove up Mount Rose Hwy ' I am home' popped into my head. I am still plagued by fears that I am over-reaching my abilities, that I will not be able to find a job here or if I do I won't be able to afford a home. I don't know what to do about those fears or if I will be able to overcome them to choose this place rather than the more practical Colorado. I don't know what I will choose, but for the next two days at least, I know this feels like home.
Tonight I am in Tahoe. As I drove up Mount Rose Hwy ' I am home' popped into my head. I am still plagued by fears that I am over-reaching my abilities, that I will not be able to find a job here or if I do I won't be able to afford a home. I don't know what to do about those fears or if I will be able to overcome them to choose this place rather than the more practical Colorado. I don't know what I will choose, but for the next two days at least, I know this feels like home.
Tonight I am in Tahoe. As I drove up Mount Rose Hwy ' I am home' popped into my head. I am still plagued by fears that I am over-reaching my abilities, that I will not be able to find a job here or if I do I won't be able to afford a home. I don't know what to do about those fears or if I will be able to overcome them to choose this place rather than the more practical Colorado. I don't know what I will choose, but for the next two days at least, I know this feels like home.

Joe Wilson, Kanye West, and the End of Civility

Somewhere this summer we lost our way. Under the banner of our First Amendment Right to Free Speech, we became boorish, angry, disrespectful fools. Rather than disagree with the policies of our President with either convincing rhetoric or a better plan, we resorted to calling him a socialist, accusing him of being born in another country, of promoting granny-killing death panels. I suppose we can understand the spewing of hate-filled trash talk by Rush Limbaugh, Glenn Beck, and Sarah Palin because they have learned that there is a positive correlation between the stratospheric rise in their ratings and the amount of hate speech they generate. So perhaps we can excuse them because they are simply feeding the monster, the more they scream, the more money they make. If they didn't have an audience their rants would quickly dissipate until they found a line of conversation that was more appealing to their audience.


We have, however, crossed a line in civil discourse when our elected of…

4 September

I've made reservations. I will be heading out to Lake Tahoe in the middle of September, to spend two days looking at rental homes. (I spent the day looking at prospects online). If all goes well, I will begin renting there in the middle of October.

4 September

I've made reservations. I will be heading out to Lake Tahoe in the middle of September, to spend two days looking at rental homes. (I spent the day looking at prospects online). If all goes well, I will begin renting there in the middle of October.

4 September

I've made reservations. I will be heading out to Lake Tahoe in the middle of September, to spend two days looking at rental homes. (I spent the day looking at prospects online). If all goes well, I will begin renting there in the middle of October.

Suicide and the Annihilation of Hope

"Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times"

- Aeschylus

DJ AM died last weekend. At first his death was considered the result of an overdose...according to news reports he'd successfully beaten an addiction to crack for several years until it came roaring back recently after a near death experience and a painful breakup. However, over the course of the past few days it seems that his death may have been intentionally self-inflicted.

Last year, David Foster Wallace, the brilliant author of Infinite Jest hanged himself at home. According to his father, David had battled severe depression for over twenty years. In the past few years his attempts to find an effective treatment that would allow him to manage the depression while continuing to write, had failed. Unable to cope with the pain of his depression, he ended his life.


These reports of suicide among the young and beautiful and indescribably talented always leave me baffled and yes, sad. Having sloshed through th…

1 September

Park City / Heber Valley, Utah was lovely, but not for me. From a physical standpoint it had all the features I am looking for in a prospective hometown, but lacked that 'aha' feeling that would tell me I've found home. It was, however, good to confirm my feelings and to at narrow down the prospects by one more.

So, now we are down to the final two, not surprisingly they are the same two that have remained in that position for most of the past year: Incline Village / Tahoe and Evergreen, Colorado. The choice between the two is between my heart and my head. Incline Village is my heart's desire, I love the feel of the place, the mountains and lake, but I worry whether I will be able to find a job there or a house I can afford. Evergreen is more practical, Denver and the jobs it holds is nearby, the cost of housing is within my budget. Let me illustrate this dilemma more explicitly: Here's my favorite house: 1011 Apollo Way, Incline Village, Nevada it's currently l…

1 September

Park City / Heber Valley, Utah was lovely, but not for me. From a physical standpoint it had all the features I am looking for in a prospective hometown, but lacked that 'aha' feeling that would tell me I've found home. It was, however, good to confirm my feelings and to at narrow down the prospects by one more.

So, now we are down to the final two, not surprisingly they are the same two that have remained in that position for most of the past year: Incline Village / Tahoe and Evergreen, Colorado. The choice between the two is between my heart and my head. Incline Village is my heart's desire, I love the feel of the place, the mountains and lake, but I worry whether I will be able to find a job there or a house I can afford. Evergreen is more practical, Denver and the jobs it holds is nearby, the cost of housing is within my budget. Let me illustrate this dilemma more explicitly: Here's my favorite house: 1011 Apollo Way, Incline Village, Nevada it's currently l…

1 September

Park City / Heber Valley, Utah was lovely, but not for me. From a physical standpoint it had all the features I am looking for in a prospective hometown, but lacked that 'aha' feeling that would tell me I've found home. It was, however, good to confirm my feelings and to at narrow down the prospects by one more.

So, now we are down to the final two, not surprisingly they are the same two that have remained in that position for most of the past year: Incline Village / Tahoe and Evergreen, Colorado. The choice between the two is between my heart and my head. Incline Village is my heart's desire, I love the feel of the place, the mountains and lake, but I worry whether I will be able to find a job there or a house I can afford. Evergreen is more practical, Denver and the jobs it holds is nearby, the cost of housing is within my budget. Let me illustrate this dilemma more explicitly: Here's my favorite house: 1011 Apollo Way, Incline Village, Nevada it's currently l…