Thursday, January 28, 2010

28 January 2010 aka God is My Headhunter

Last night the President said that for all the success stories he'd heard about how the economy was turning around he also knew of people who 'sent out resumes every day and got no response'. At that moment I thought he was speaking of me. Before I moved to Evergreen, I truly imagined that as soon as I started sending out resumes in December, I'd have a job. I thought for sure I'd be starting my new career in January. I'd visualized the job I wanted, 'getting the call', even going to work, or better yet, working from my computer at home.

The reality has been quite different. It is now quickly closing on the end of January and I have not received one positive response to the resumes I've sent out, the jobs I've applied to, the online job boards I've joined. What I have received are daily emails from resume writing services, resume distribution services, services that promise to put my resume in the hands of recruiters, or to help me write a cover letter that will land job offers with just 'one magic line' that apparently the other thousands applying for the same job are missing.

The worst thing about the job hunt is the toll is takes on my self-esteem. I have an MBA that I earned with a 3.9 GPA. I've been an Assistant Vice President for a Japanese Investment Bank, I've taught overseas, and worked in Commercial Real Estate, and yet, day after day I wonder if at 47 I am too old to be hired for the jobs I've applied to, or if the diversity of my work background is actually working against me. This morning I woke up at 5am. This is what happens when I've got a lot on mind, I wake hours early and then the flood of worrying thoughts begin. I try to counter them with positive thoughts or prayer, and if that doesn't work, I turn on the morning news and let the white noise cover the chatter in my head.

Last night, my evening devotional read 'let go and let God' and I'm trying to do that. I also got up this morning and applied for more jobs and posted my resume to more job sites. Let's see who produces results first, me or God...

3 comments:

Keetha said...

I think the two of you are working in tandem. What's that story in the Bible, about the people who set out guards and also prayed. :-)

larramiefg said...

He'll lead you in the right direction as long as you're not afraid to explore new paths.

Vodka Mom said...

I have a deep felt belief that our path is indeed one that we are supposed to walk. I Do believe in guardian angels- and all that stuff. However, it is hard to walk it when it is sprinkled with these painful challenges.

Tightwad is laid off AGAIN, and we can't sleep at night worrying. However, we know that I have a job, and that we are better off than most.

I am saying PRAYERS for you. I don't want to sound like a WACK job, but I mean it.